She's back, folks... and this time, it's personal

OK, been M.I.A. for a good long while now, but have been trying a new tactic. I have been taking the "baby step" of just trying to eat a little less and move a little more. Serious dieting always kicks up serious resistance for me, and therefore does not really work as a long-term solution. So, for the past few weeks, I have been eating "normally" except just making marginally healthier choices and going for smaller portions. I have occasionally been going for walks, or just dancing by myself in my bedroom for 10 or 15 minutes. Nothing strenuous or stressful. I have lost about 6 pounds, perhaps more, as I may have gained a couple of pounds since my last weigh-in of 309.6 lbs before losing... but in any case, I am now weighing 303.9 lbs as of yesterday. Yay me! This means I can get under 300 lbs (for the first time in about a year) very soon, without a whole lot of extra effort. I'll keep ya posted.

I'm back, did ya miss me?

OK, not sure how many folks actually read this- not many of my friends seem to have noticed that I stopped blogging for over a week, but when it comes right down to it, I find this helpful myself, so I will return to doing it. I am feeling more optimistic about this whole losing weight endeavor. I have been inconsistent and therefore have not seen much of a net loss in the past couple of months, but I have refined my plan, and I have fortified my kitchen with lovely healthy groceries, and I know I can do this! If I really put some effort into it, I can be significantly smaller, healthier, and better looking by the dawning of the new year, and I'd like that very much.

Another day, another dollar...

Sorry, I am just lame today. This is true in both the slang usage way and the literal way. I feel blah. My right foot and shin are hurting, and so I am limping a bit. I was going to make more gazpacho this evening, and then was just too lazy to do so. I ordered a calzone from the local pizza joint. It was OK, not great, and probably more calories than I needed. I walked the dog, but didn't have the energy to go far (plus my foot was hurting). I really have nothing more to say. I don't feel at all entertaining, nor do I feel like I have anything of real value to contribute to this blog today. Then again, we all have days like this, so just letting everyone know that I am having one, because maybe you can relate.

All about gazpacho

Yes, it is true, these past few days, I am all about gazpacho (that veggie-rich refreshing cold summer soup with countless variations). I have made several types since Saturday, and they have all been yummy, low-calorie, and very nutritious. And I'm not done yet- I plan to try a couple more gazpacho recipes and invent several of my own variations over the next few days. Part of my motivation is that they are tasty and complex (yet still somewhat delicate in flavor), and another part of my motivation is that I went swimming yesterday, and saw myself in a bathing suit, and it ain't pretty. Really, I know most women can be critical of their bathing-suited selves, but I truly look like an aging sea cow who is 10 months pregnant. I must do whatever it takes to make next summer less stressful at the pool and/or beach, since I do love to swim. Anyhow, for those of you who are culinarily adventurous, I suggest watermelon gazpacho. I kind of made it up (although there are some internet gazpacho recipes that incorporate watermelon). For mine, you put the following stuff in a blender: 1 cup white grape juice, 1 large cucumber, peeled and cubed, 2 cups of seedless watermelon chunks, 2 small tomatillos, quartered, 5-7 leaves of fresh basil, 1 teaspoon sea salt. Blend it. Drink it, or add a few smallish chunks of cucumber and watermelon to give it "body" and eat it with a spoon. It's different, it's refreshing, it's lovely. If you want it a bit thicker, add in some plain yogurt. If you want it to taste a bit more tart, add in a teaspoon of lemon juice.

Oh, and by the way, I deliberately skipped blogging this past weekend. This is my show, so I get to make the rules for myself, and I will from now on only commit to blogging on the weekdays. So there.

Automatic, systematic, hydromatic

So, I had a productive day, in that I made some pretty good food choices, and went for a walk after work, and didn't give in to a craving for a soft-serve ice cream cone dipped in chocolate from the place down the street... although I did stock up on some lower calorie frozen treats, like Skinny Cow ice cream bars, and Popsicles. But I feel the need for more organization around losing weight. I don't want to set up too many rules and restrictions for myself, because when I feel deprived I rebel with a vengeance.
However, I do want to come up with a better system, so that I don't have to do actual labor-intensive calorie counting on a daily basis, but can be reasonably sure that my calorie intake stays consistently low enough to assure that I will lose weight. I think I'd like to figure out a few food combinations that add up to approximately 200 or approximately 500 calories each, so that I can select 2 of the 500 cal and 2 or 3 of the 200 cal options per day, and keep my intake to about 1400-1600 calories per day. For instance, I already know that a salmon & avocado maki roll in the average sushi restaurant is 304 calories, an order of maguro (tuna) nigiri sushi (2 pieces) is 100 calories, and that a serving of edamame (the green fresh soy beans) is 100 calories, and therefore if I go out for Japanese, I could order the edamame appetizer, a salmon avocado maki, and maguro nigiri, and I would be consuming 504 calories.
Hopefully I can figure out about a dozen more of these 500 calorie meals, and then a bunch that are closer to 200 for breakfasts and snacks (I would guess that oatmeal and a fresh apple or yogurt with fresh blueberries adds up to around 200 calories, but I will research it tomorrow.) I will also allow myself unlimited extra non-starchy vegetables to supplement, because those will add a negligible amount of calories, all of which will be more bang for my nutritional buck, so to speak. And just to be extra certain that I do not feel deprived and overly restricted, I will have one "freebie" day per week, when I don't need to stick to the formula at all.

I feel very hopeful about this new plan! I probably will not try to implement it right away, because I need to do some math first, and then do some shopping, but perhaps by Sunday I can start this in earnest. It really seems manageable. What do you think?

Bikes not bon-bons

I keep seeing people riding bikes. It looks like fun, and I remember feeling carefree and almost as if I could fly the last time I rode a bike, which was over 2 years ago (and many pounds lighter). I think I would simply feel awkward and unwieldy if I tried to hop on one of mine these days. I actually own two bikes, and they are just sitting around sadly mourning their loss of motion. I need to lose enough weight that, by next spring and summer, I can enjoy bikes and beaches. This means I need to get more serious, and eschew more ice cream, candy, and calzones. Speaking of which, I had a bacon, onion, and mushroom calzone for dinner, and it made me feel heavy and overfull, even though I gave a piece of it to my roommate, a few tiny pieces to her dog, and even threw away part of it. Still, I need to remind myself how much cleaner and lighter I feel after a dinner with more veggies and less fat. Tomorrow I will not eat anything without asking myself, "How will this make me feel after I am finished consuming it?"

After the long weekend

OK, so I didn't post for a few days, but I figure that should be allowed on holiday long weekends. But now it is Tuesday and no more excuses. I did OK over the weekend. I walked much more than usual (for instance, I walked from the train to the esplanade and back on the 4th of July, and that was probably over a mile of walking by day's end- more than I have walked in many a moon), but then I did eat quite a bit of food over the weekend too. Nothing too horrible - I managed to avoid fried dough at the festivities, but then again I caved in to the craving for an Italian sausage with grilled peppers and onions. Oh well, I would say I am still generally moving in the right direction. By the way, not that it has much of anything to do with losing weight, but I bought the best mascara today! Diorshow by Dior, and yes it is more expensive than Maybelline, but I'm worth it. I do think self-esteem boosters help with motivation in the long run, and I gotta tell ya, that with this fancy mascara on, my eyes look amazing!